Archive Monthly Archives: Jun 2014

Who is clawing on the inside of my soul ?

We all seem to rock between two phases of soul disease .

The part where we try fill the empty void from the outside . Through eating , drinking , drugging and even sex,shopping and drama .Even trying to find love outside ourselves, trying to desperately bring it wthin Trying to fill a black hole inside with anything we can find before it consumes us.

Then the part where we try to empty the black hole inside us hoping that we can somehow rip the sickness from our souls . In desperation we expel anything that we can . From our tears , our screams our pure anger , right down to the raw cathartic act of physically purging and trying to puke the pain out ! The desperate feeling of trying to remove the pain , some even take a piece of glass to their skin !

These desperate acts of filling and overindulgence

And then purging and removal

IN and then out
Like devastating emotional tides
rising and falling

Work less each time
The black hole gapes within

These filling and expelling tides slowly rip us apart
Pushing and pulling
Stretching our souls in suffering peristaltic hells
The indigestion of the very soul

This pain can never be filled by anything from the outside
The rejected , lost and scared inner child awaits within
Tearing at your insides with fear

Ignored children scream the loudest
And its piecing cries will get louder each day
Its clawing more frantic from the inside

You can never run from , drown or fill this void gentle ones

Until you go within
And pick up your child
Until you look deep inside
And find a way to love, no matter what you find inside
no matter which parts of you where left behind

Go withing , behind silent eyes
Face the inner darkness

NO demon lies within , merely a scared lost and lonely part of yourself that wishes to be picked up and held in you safe arms, demanding love and acceptance once more

Slowly and softly as i held my child within , it melted into my loving arms
And its screams and clawing fingers gently phased away
The insanity that had consumed me was the rejection of oneself
The love and peace that now flowed flowed through me was brought back by the sleeping child

I opened my eyes to the world around me once more
Yet i knew it would never be the same

I could see for the first time
I am not alone
I am one with all things
I am whole

Shhhh little one you are tired , its time you sleep now !


The doors of perception: Forgotten states and inner worlds !


The doors of perception: Forgotten states and inner worlds !

3 August ( Sunday ) 11 am
Rhodes park hall kensington JHB

Cost : R200 Booking essential
( Or a donation that suites your pocket )
N P Raaths Capitec Bank acc 1383 463 946 branch code 470 010

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Please join me for morning in the beautiful Rhodes park as we fearlessly explore and absolutely incredible subject with other awakened souls !

Each and every day I become more and more aware of the most incredible illusion imaginable . An illusion so great that I always believed that the great minds of our time where being figurative when they hinted upon its existence

The mere fact that that we have in actual fact been turned inside out . Left to believe that reality lies outside of us in what we perceive through the limited senses .

We all perceive reality as something outside of us , happening to us . Something that unfolds outside of us and randomly effects us .

Come on this incredible journey with me that will stretch and challenge the most open and connect minds . A journey into a world where we are inside out . A journey where reality is in actual fact outplaying from the inner worlds that most do not even believe exist

A powerful journey where we explore the greatest madness in human history . His obsession with a mere reflection of the inner worlds that we perceive as reality, and the sad and helpless state that this disconnection and illusion has left us in !

We take an epic look at the great minds that figured this out and how they tried to explain it .

Then we look at the mind blowing altered states that we are naturally capable of accessing . From Out of Body States to Accessing Inner worlds like the Akashic records .
I am going to share allot of my personal stories about how I first discovered these inner worlds and how going online to true reality has effected me in ways I am yet to describe

Most importantly after an epic look at a concept so powerful and bizarre that it at first seems impossible.
We then learn about the different states that we are able to access … states that when accessed correctly will seem more real than the object in your hand or the world you see with open eyes .

We learn how to access them , we learn how to connect to our inner worlds and guidance systems

We will be covering a variety of misunderstood subjects along the way
( DMT : altered states : meditation : Inner worlds : Channeling just to name a few )

The only truth ,reality and even God that exists
Exists within you silently waiting

Lets take this mere concept and theory as it was for me a few years ago . And lets make this a reality

Magic beyond your wildest thoughts is open to all that step forward in these times

In this time of awakening we can all go fully back online

The guru within awaits
The merge has begun !